Landon

My mom is currently going through my room and destroying it. Moving things. Getting rid of things. Wanna know why? Well, his name is Landon. Albeit, he is the best thing (person) in the entire world, but this is my sttuuuffff. I'm a little sentimental. So I have a lot of things. And they are disappearing before my very eyes. I don't like it.

Back to the reason why. Landon. The butthead (and by butthead, I mean amazing most awesome guy ever) is coming to visit in March, so mom decided that I need to get rid of a lot of things to declutter my room. All past boyfriend stuff was trashed already, but now she's taking away the good stuff. No longer does my huge teddy bear sit in the corner. It looks so sad and lonely without Mr. Bear. Goodbye crap ton of clothing, other stuffed friends, and half the contents of my desk. We aren't even half way through and it looks empty in here. Mom is insisting on moving pictures around, taking some down, putting different ones up, reframing them, blah blah blah. Oh, the things I do for Landon. =P

Speaking of Mr. Wonderful, let me give you all an idea of who this spectacular person is. His name is Landon, obviously. He served his mission in Santo Domingo in the Dominican Republic. He speaks fluent Spanish and it is the most awesome thing ever. Who knew Spanish could sound so hot? ;) hahaha. He's from Washington, but he is currently in South Korea.  He is stationed there. Yes, I said stationed. Landon is Army Infantry. He joined up a few months after he got home from the DR. Before that he mostly climbed mountains. Yes, my man is hardcore.Yes, I said my man:)

This is him, by the way;) He's the one trying (=P) to look hardcore in the sunglasses. haha. But seriously, aren't I lucky? I know. Be jealous. 

I know I haven't blogged in forever. I need to fix that--it's therapeutic. I just wanted to tell everyone that my room is getting naked and my boyfriend is amazing:) That is all. 

To My Husband, the final online letter.

Love,

Every time I am feeling down, I think of you. It might sound odd to you, but you save me every day. I have moments where I am stressed out, or I am completely broken down and don't know what to do. Life is not easy. "He never said it would be easy, He only said it would be worth it." I know that this is true on so many different levels. There are the eternal aspects with families being together forever and other aspects of eternal glory, but there are temporal aspects too. Someone told me the other day, "people who tell you that these are the best days of your life are wrong. Don't worry. These are nowhere near the best days of your life." 

My life isn't awful now. It's difficult. It's a very taxing time in my life, as it is for everyone. I know there are a lot of people who have it worse. This is not me complaining about my life. But in times of trial--because there are always going to be trials--I ponder on the future. I think about life far down the road, with you and the kids. The knowledge that there is going to be a wonderful life with our family is enough to make me keep going. I can't wait for those days. 

Will you tuck the kids into bed while I watch from the doorway, without you knowing I'm there? Will you come home late and talk to me from the kitchen table while I heat you up dinner after a long day? As long as you're with me, I know things will be fine. Will you deploy for long periods of time if you are in the military? As long as you come home, I will wait. 

Is it strange to you that I love you, and we haven't even met? Or maybe we have, and I just don't know it yet. I think I'm going to start writing these in some form of notebook. 

I love you. Thanks for being patient with me. 

Love, 

Your Future Wife

Truth

Life throws you curve balls. Things never work out how you think they will--and that's not always a bad thing. Sometimes it's actually a really good thing. Someone told me a few years ago that "God gives us what we want or something better." I really think that's true. I also think that we need to let Him. He knows what's best for us, and we really don't. Trust is a hard thing to do, but it's really important.


I never really bare (bear?) my testimony, but I will here. It's the same thing I posted on facebook, because that's what it is. God has not, does not, or will not ever abandon His children. The true gospel is restored upon the earth in these latter days. The Book of Mormon is truth and scripture. Families are Eternal. Jesus is the Christ.


Now a note on September 11th.

The only thing I remember from that day was wondering if my dad was going to be okay, because he was deployed. I don't think I really understood what had happened. In between I saw pictures and learned what happened--even wrote a research paper on it, but it still never hit me. Ten years later I watch the footage of the attacks for the first time. Now I understand. One nation under God. Indivisible.

‎"Through blurred eyes we find the strength and courage to soar beyond the moment. We look to the future knowing we can never forget the past. God bless America."


Don't forget--every day is Independence Day.