Heart and Mind

Do you sometimes wonder why you put yourself through the things that you put yourself through--all in the name of love, or whatever you want to call it?

"I want them to be happy" as an excuse for letting them go, or "we're just friends" as an excuse for fear of commitment. Being unselfish when we want so much to be selfish. Encouraging them to do what will make them happy, even if it makes us miserable. Why? Then things go on with no one knowing the truth of anyone's feelings. If you tell someone to date someone else, that's kind of a signal telling them that you aren't interested. But if they are talking to you about someone else in the first place, that's a signal that they aren't interested--right? 

What about having someone who has always been your friend and looking up one day and realizing that you love them, and you don't know when, where, why, or how it happened. It just did. We walk into the same room, like we do every day, only this time, our hearts skip a beat. We look at them and suddenly see something that we didn't see the day before. Is it because we know them, and they know us--probably better than anyone else? We know we can trust them?

What about loving someone who doesn't treat you like they should? They say sweet things, and tell us they love us, but other times they boss us around. They make us feel awful and wonderful at the same time--special and insignificant. They are our top priority but we know that in that long list of theirs, we are towards the bottom. Their promises to us don't mean anything to them, and even though they break their promises every time, we continue to believe every last word that they say--hoping that maybe today it will be different...that today they will care enough to follow through.

You ever have something that you need to do, but you can't make yourself do it? Because the heart wants one thing and the mind wants another. Problem is that they need to work together, but it's hard to make them. Why? Because the heart wants what the heart wants. But sometimes we need to just stop trying to make EVERYONE around us happy and take care of ourselves first by doing what is best for us. We all need to make the decisions that will make us happy in the long run...even if it hurts right now.

I know I can't take my own advice. So for now...